Erase from my mind
Memories that bind
Forcing me to cling to life
Driving me to cling to hope
Your beating voice trembles in my mind
Bouncing every moment in time
As I catch your fading whispers
My fleeting voice crawls inside
My head tells me to hear my heart
A soul in love yet doomed to be apart
I try to listen to my whispers
But you override them with your voice
A voice as loud as a scream
As tender as a kiss
Yet as fatal as hope
That one day you’ll be mine
The courage you posses
Surpasses that of a slayer
Your intelligent and wise judgment
Outsmart any opposing enemy
The gift of wealth and power
Put your talent and temperament to purpose
But why…
Your intentions form a character
One who conquered us
So we can live for nothing
A drop of blood
From a swift blade
A drop of a tear
From true words
One hurts within
One simply hurts
More drops
Falling at the same time
Not inflicted by me
Just an affliction of life
Your false bravado
In the heat of your depression
Makes me think that
I am nothing to you
The only one who cared for the tree
Sun and rain
Sadly an illusion of affection,
Yet every day it depended on them
If only one time they fail
If only one time they refuse the tree’s call
It will start to wither
And eventually depart from this life
His words try to hide the truth
From the tone I can tell
Lies are leaving your mouth
Something has broken you
Worse when I see your shattered eyes
Cracked by what your mind has seen
Streaks of burning white
If you only let me look closer
I might be able to see the marks
The marks that show the calamity
The marks that broke everything you see
Into pieces
As simple threads surround my skin
An attempt to keep me warm
Supposedly to trap heat
All I feel is cold
Remnants of ice
On the surface of my skin
Forever trapped
My insides shiver
Trying to breathe
They feel the frozen heart
Releasing spiked blood
Spreading… Spreading…
Soon unable to move
Till then I search
For a fire to burn my heart
Seeds of desperation scattered
Grew too quickly
The sapling whipping core
Piercing slender brittle bones
Flesh already devoured by pain
Roots inhaling soul
Ingraining onto my heart
As the sun and dew come
As they force me to change
I feel my grip loosening
No longer the same
Tree growing inside
Replacing who I am
Branches grasp my outer skin
No longer can I be seen
If you are desiring to do so for health reasons or the like, than by alleans. But try not to go to any extremes (: It would be good for you to be healthy and happy (hh) :) And yes some parents certainly need parenting classes.
The post is not exactly about me. The main point is to get parenting classes. Even if you think you know enough, parenting classes would help more. Common sense is not enough when it comes to kids. Whatever extra education you can get will only make it better for the children. Thank you for your concern though :-)
And as I looked at myself in the mirror
I still saw fat
I wish my bones could truly disappear
So I can be pretty
It seems only yesterday…
Mom smiled at the scale
When she lost weight
She was even happier
When she skipped a meal
She bragged about her…
Accomplishments
Her friends praised her
My brother compared my thighs to his
He said I was so fat
I did not see it then
But I see it now
Abhorred flesh
How disgusted
They must have been of me
Now
Why does Dad get mad at me?
For being pretty
I think I need to lose more weight
To escape these tears
I will close my eyes
And fall asleep
You will not get to see
These tears I cry
Nor will I
In the morning
I will not be able to escape
But maybe I will forget
That I had tears in my eye
The words that I desire to say
Will never leave my lips
Before you disappear and walk away
Never hearing those footsteps again
Both of our imperfections create a wall
My great inabilities
Your lack of desire to live
Completely different yet…
Is it the same world?
I do not know you
How would I know?
The words we speak
Never go that deep
Maybe we’ll see what we’re losing
Life, will, and a chance
The dimly kindled light
Weak in the dark
Waiting for you to shine bright…
I reach for your arms to save me
Yet, at the end there is nothing there
But air
I want you to melt these chains
Forcing me to live this lonely life
To release me
Why have you tamed me this way?
To need you while I’m awake
Why?
As I see you laugh across the room,
I wonder if you notice me
Laughing at the same thing
While I admire your gentle smile
A little strange
Actually awkward
When our eyes connected
The circumstance…
As I write these words next to you
Are you wondering what I write?
Do you even know that it’s about you?
May these words someday reach you…
The simplicity of your smile
Halts the birds freely flying in the sky
The sound of your voice
Soothes the raging winds
Your warm, glistening eyes
Grants a dying rose eternal life
The touch of your soft hands
Calms a savage wolf
Your inability to love
Freezes the rain
Erupts volcanoes
Darkens the sun
Crumbles the world
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